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About Me

Hey. I'm Marcus. I’m 17 and I guess I’m the quiet one in the group (not that anyone notices lol). I watch a lot of anime, I edit stuff sometimes, and I’m probably on Reddit more than I should admit. I don’t really go out much. Not because I can’t. I just… prefer doing my own thing, I guess.

I’m not really good at this intro thing, so yeah. If you’re here, you’re probably lost.

Basic Info

  • Name: Marcus Jenkins
  • Birthday: November 5 (yes I know, spooky)
  • Star Sign: Scorpio
  • Pronouns: He/Him
  • Gender: Male
  • Sexuality: Straight... probably
  • Height: 1.77m
  • Appearance: Kinda curly blond hair, blue-grey eyes, and yeah, there’s a birthmark.
  • Style: Mostly jeans + anime shirts. Deal with it.

Likes & Hobbies

Stuff I like:

  • Anime (obviously)
  • Retro games
  • K-on!, Re:Zero, and Kubo Won’t Let Me Be Invisible (underrated btw)
  • Editing anime clips (sometimes I post ‘em, sometimes not)
  • Yu-Gi-Oh cards
  • Collecting anime merch
  • Lurking forums and Reddit (yeah yeah, go ahead and judge)

Not Into

  • Jocks
  • Being left on read
  • People pretending to be something they’re not
  • When people act like you're invisible
  • Diet talk (seriously, shut up about calories)
  • Getting picked on (bet you think you're funny)
  • Forced smiles
  • People who think they know me

Bonus Stuff

  • Hidden talent: I can spot a filler episode from a mile away.
  • Biggest regret: Letting people walk all over me.
  • Pet peeve: Fake deep people and loudmouths.
  • Dream: To disappear into a 2D world and never come back.

Anime Saved My Life Tier List

S+ Tier: “Changed me on a molecular level”

These are sacred. If you diss them, I will block you IRL.

  • Your Lie in April“I don’t even like classical music. But now I cry every time I hear a piano.”
  • Clannad: After Story“The only time I ever screamed into a pillow and meant it.”
  • March Comes In Like a Lion“This made me feel seen and called out in the same breath.”
  • AnoHana“Men do cry. They just wait until episode 11.”

S Tier: “Would tattoo quotes from this on my ribcage”

These animes understood me when nobody else did.

  • Orange“I watched this in one night and then stared at the ceiling for two hours.”
  • Toradora!“Fight me, Ryuuji is THE standard. If I had a Taiga I wouldn’t be like this.”
  • Plastic Memories“They had one job: don’t fall in love with the robot. Guess what they did.”
  • Fruits Basket (2019)“Yes I relate to the rat boy, what about it.”

A Tier: “Genuinely healing”

Not quite full mental breakdown tier, but close.

  • Horimiya“I pretend this is how love works.”
  • ReLIFE“Maybe if I was 17 again I’d do things differently too...”
  • Angel Beats!“Honestly just wanted to be in that band and ignore my trauma.”
  • Nana“Real talk this is for girls but I ate it UP.”

B Tier: “Cringe but I’m too deep in to stop”

This is where the shame starts. But also the obsession.

  • Sword Art Online (first arc only)“Kirito is everything wrong with me and yet…”
  • No Game No Life“The colors? The incest vibes? The IQ points lost? Yes.”
  • Vivy: Fluorite Eye’s Song“I don’t understand half of it but I will defend it with my life.”
  • The Future Diary“Yuno Gasai is my Roman Empire.”

C Tier: “I know it’s bad. That’s why I like it.”

I watch these with my hand over my face and my soul out of my body.

  • Diabolik Lovers“They’re all toxic and bitey and awful. I’ve rewatched it 4 times.”
  • Miraculous Ladybug (not even anime but shut up)“Leave me and my Parisian disaster children alone.”
  • Black Butler (especially season 2)“The fanfics hit harder than the actual plot.”
  • Ouran Highschool Host Club“Not a personality, but definitely a coping mechanism.”

D Tier: “Should’ve dropped it. Didn’t.”

Pure spite made me finish these.

  • Tokyo Ghoul (after season 1)“I wanted it to be deep. But it lied.”
  • Elfen Lied“You’re not edgy, you’re just naked.”
  • Darling in the FranXX“The disappointment was so specific it felt personal.”

F Tier: “Regret incarnate”

These stole time from my life I will never get back.

  • Domestic Girlfriend“If you thought I’d relate to this you are going to jail.”
  • School Days“I watched it for the memes. I left with trauma.”
  • Rent-A-Girlfriend“I was lonely, not that lonely.”

Secret Fanfiction Stash

Yo, this is my hidden fanfic vault. One-word password only. Hint: think of a certain rainbow cat flying around here...

Fanfiction Haven

Cursed by Perfection

Hunter x Hunter — Killua Zoldyck x Male OC

He’s not strong. Not like them. Not like him.

He hides behind sarcasm, hoods, and energy drinks. He skips breakfast and binges ramen at 3AM. But Killua still looks at him like he’s something more than weak. More than human. Maybe something worth protecting.

"You're not a burden," Killua says flatly, not even glancing away from the arcade screen. "You're just… kind of pathetic sometimes."

The OC bites the inside of his cheek. "Thanks."

"But like, in a good way."

They don’t touch. Not really. But their hands brush when they reach for the same joystick. Killua pulls away first, like always.

The OC will never be special. But if Killua keeps choosing to be near him, even if he never says why, maybe that’s enough.

A/N: not romantically... idk. okay maybe a little. shut up.

I Could’ve Been Him

My Hero Academia — Bakugo Katsuki x Reader

Reader is not pretty. Not popular. Not quirked in any meaningful way. She walks through life in oversized sweaters and chipped black nail polish.

Bakugo hates weaklings.

But he doesn’t hate her.

He notices her.

“The hell are you always lookin’ at me for?” he growls, sweat popping on his temple.

She shrugs. "You're loud."

“Tch. Whatever.”

And then he sits by her at lunch. No one else. Just her.

He’s angry, but not at her. He’s angry at how much he wants to know her name.

A/N: i wrote this while staring at a photo of my own hand pretending he was holding it. i am not okay.

To Be Worthy of You

Death Note — Light Yagami x Male OC, TW: obsession

Light looks like how control feels.

The OC studies him across the room, counting the ticks in his notebook. He wants to become better.

Not to beat Light.

To deserve to sit next to him.

"You should work on your posture," Light says one day, brushing dust off the OC’s collar.

The OC doesn’t speak. He only straightens his spine and tries not to breathe too loud.

He dreams of Light calling him brilliant. Of being allowed into the plan.

Of being seen.

A/N: not gay. it's not about that. it’s about dominance. okay maybe a little gay. whatever.

Alone With the Water God

Spirited Away — Haku x Reader

He is ethereal. Cold. Distant.

But she sees him when no one else does.

And when she cries in the boiler room after everyone laughs at her oversized uniform, he finds her.

“You don’t belong here,” he whispers.

“I know,” she says. “But neither do you.”

And Haku touches her hand for the first time.

He is water. She is cracked porcelain. But maybe, just maybe, they could make something soft out of sadness.

A/N: I know he’s 12 in canon but shut up he’s a river spirit it doesn’t count. age is a concept. leave me alone.

Project: Reinvention

Original Character Fic — Gym bro x loser fic

“You’ll never be like them,” the trainer says.

He’s shirtless and golden and oiled like a Greek god.

The OC stares down at his soft belly and counts the stretch marks like tally marks in failure.

“But I want to be. I want—”

The gym bro leans in. “You want me to make you into something people won’t laugh at?”

The OC nods.

“Then stop crying. And give me ten more reps.”

A/N: this isn’t romantic it’s literally about discipline. shut up.

The Basement Pact

Attack on Titan — Levi x Male OC

Levi doesn’t talk much. But when the OC throws up during training, he doesn’t laugh.

He hands him a towel.

Their eyes meet over the bleach bucket.

“You’re not weak,” Levi says. “You’re just... not used to the pain yet.”

The OC writes that on his mirror in eyeliner. He stops eating sugar. He wakes up at 4AM.

Levi never compliments him again.

But he stops correcting him.

And that’s love, isn’t it?

A/N: [No note provided, but keeping consistent formatting.]

CTRL + Z

Genshin Impact — Scaramouche x OC

He insults you. Every time. But you keep logging in.

Your OC stands beside him, purple streaks across your face like bruises you begged for.

“You’ll never be strong,” Scaramouche scoffs.

“Maybe not,” your OC says. “But I’ll follow you anyway.”

And for just one second, he flinches.

Just one second, he doesn’t disappear.

A/N: If you judge me for this I will actually kill myself.

Mirror Heart

Tokyo Ghoul — Kaneki x Reader, body dysmorphia fic

She stands in front of the mirror.

Fat.

Wrong.

Too much.

Kaneki finds her.

He knows what it’s like to hate your flesh.

“We’re monsters,” he says, reaching out. “But monsters still deserve to live.”

She cries into his chest. He doesn’t flinch.

Because he’s cracked too.

And cracked things fit together sometimes.

A/N: I literally wrote this in the middle of a binge. The shame is real. Don’t @ me.

He’d Never Pick Me

OC Fic

You ever watch your best friend walk into a room and everyone looks at him first?

You ever stand there like a side quest?

Like the loading screen of a person?

This story has no plot. Just one boy sitting next to another, wondering how it feels to be wanted.

He doesn’t confess.

He doesn’t cry.

He just takes it.

Because that’s what background characters do.

A/N: This isn’t about anyone I know. Except it is. Whatever. You’ll never read this anyway.

Wall of Redemption

People love to talk like they know me. Here's the receipts. Call it my petty little gallery of "wow, you really said that?" Keep running your mouths, I’ll keep the screenshots. 😘

[█████]:

You know, you could be cute if you, like, actually took care of yourself? You're like a walking marshmallow. No offense.

[█████]:

Why do you always try so hard to fit in? You’re never gonna be one of them, and thats okay.

[█████]:

I dont get it. Why do you keep posting so much online? Its kind of embarassing.

[█████]:

You’re kinda too much sometimes, you know? I mean, its just... I dont know. I cant handle all the energy.

[█████]:

U really think anyone cares about your opinion on this? It’s not that deep, bruv

[█████]:

Its like... you have all these feelings, but your so scared to actually do anything about them. Its kinda pathetic.

[█████]:

I get that you're trying to be better, but your just not cut out for it. Why dont you leave it to people who actually know what theyre doing?

[█████]:

You cant even keep up with a basic conversation. How are you supposed to survive when real life hits?

[█████]:

Man, stop acting like your some big deal. Your just as average as the rest of us.

[█████]:

You act like the world is against you, but its not. You just need to relax and let life do its thing

Progress Plan Board

This is my grind. No excuses, no shortcuts. Gotta be better than yesterday, or what’s the point? Check the plan, stick to it, don’t be weak.

Weekly Focuses

Weight Goal:

  • Monday to Friday: "Lose at least 2 pounds."
  • Saturday/Sunday: “Weigh-in day—dont go above last week's number.”

Calculating...

Anime Rewatch Challenge:

  • “Watch 3 episodes of Hunter x Hunter each day. Dont stop until you can recite the fights verbatim. Get better at it. You should be better than this.”

Self-Improvement:

  • “No junk food this week. Remember that time you ate an entire pizza and felt disgusting?”
  • “Avoid social media after 10 PM. Just stop wasting time scrolling. Go read a book or do something productive (doesnt count if it's about anime).”

Daily Tasks

Morning Routine:

  • 5:30 AM: “Wake up—NO snooze.”
  • 6:00 AM: “Cold shower. Feel the discomfort. It’s character-building.”
  • 6:30 AM: “Light stretching. The more pain you can tolerate, the stronger you become.”

Diet Plan:

  • Meal 1: “Greek yogurt (only 100 calories) with half a banana.” (Remind yourself that you're not allowed more.)
  • Meal 2: “Salad—NO dressing. You’re not an animal.”
  • Meal 3: “Chicken breast. Only 3 oz. Watch the scale, not the hunger.”
  • Snack Option: “Apple or protein bar (only 1 per day).”

Exercise Plan

Monday (Cardio Day):

  • “Run for 30 minutes on the treadmill. Dont stop. You’ve got no excuse to be lazy.”
  • “500 calories burned. You should be aiming for more, but this is enough for now.”

Tuesday (Strength Day):

  • “Lift weights. Keep those reps clean.”
  • “10 sets of 15 reps each. Upper body only. Look at those arms—do they look like the ones in anime yet?”

Wednesday (Rest Day):

  • “Stretch. Dont forget to check yourself in the mirror for progress.”

Thursday (Cardio + Abs):

  • “Treadmill for 40 minutes. Abs workout afterward. You want to be cut, not just skinny.”
  • “Track those steps. Walk 15,000 steps at least.” (Turns into an obsessive tally.)

Friday (Full Body):

  • “Deadlifts, squats. Go heavier. No more excuses.”
  • “Your body will be different after today, but not yet.”

Habit Tracker

Steps:

  • Daily Goal: 10,000 steps
  • Weekly Goal: 70,000 steps

Calories In:

  • “Calories consumed today: 450 (under goal) BUT did you feel satisfied? Did it feel like you were “doing enough?” Remember to stay disciplined.”

Social Media Time:

  • Limit: 1 hour

The Void

Stamp Collection

Just some stuff I picked up along the way. Don’t ask why, just vibe with it.

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